the ides of march, the rites of spring

"what good am i to anyone like this? it's been a hard couple months, i'll admit."
- "convinced i'm wrong," polar bear club



things have been crazy lately. work, home, brain, heart - nothing's been panning out. as much as much of it is my fault, i've been dealing with forces and patterns i cannot control. or haven't been able to control.

and the same time, the last few months have seen so many things come to a close, in a good way. like this march of self destruction, self immolation, that started almost ten years ago is coming to an end. no more grudges and bad blood.

feeling like this spring will be defining, that things will come to fruition.

had a scotch and beer last night, hot shower and shave: here's to hoping i'm right, here's to hoping that i'm headed in the right direction.